Confused...errr something

Okay, I know I just wrote an entire post about my dog, but I thought it was funny. You guys just need to meet him and you'll see I'm not making this shit up. Anyway...not that my dog got me thinking (weird) but I just went back and read all my old posts. I realized something. Well actually I've known it all my life, but I don't think I've ever actually "realized" it and taken it seriously. I totally wear my heart on my sleeve and fall way too hard way too fast. Like one day I kinda like someone, the next we need to spend every minute together, then a week later I'm planning our future in my head. OMG I'M CRAZY. Like, literally insane. I'm an awesome friend-that's-a-girl, but I'm a terrible girl-friend. It's no wonder I date all my guy friends. I'm totally myself and awesome (I know, thank you) around them, then I like them back and I get all stupid and crazy. The only problem is, I don't know why and I don't know how to fix it. Where is that crazy switch and how do I make it stay OFF? Why can't I just be me all the time. That awesome person that all my friends love me for? I'm so awesome, I can't even stop saying it (SEE?!?!). I love awesome me. Then I get into a relationship and all that awesomeness disappears and all this crazy lady shit comes out and even my friends think I'm insane but they're too scared to tell me because I'm so insane. It's a viscous circle. It's like, sometimes I say things about my relationships and even normal, awesome me is wondering why I just said that and if anybody really heard (ps, I realized the world is full of catch-22's and we just have to deal with it. weird sidenote). Anyway, I need to figure this out. What do I need to do?? If anyone has any idea how to turn the crazy off...well okay, all girls are crazy, but maybe "tone it down", please help. I'm begging you. I really am awesome and I don't want to be crazy anymore. I want to keep living my life and be able to let others in without completely losing my sanity and self in the process. What to do, what to do?